Beacon

The shadows never hide you

as well as you would think

and your skies are never perfect blue,

but I'll never let you sink.

The rain might fall and wet your skin

and tangle up your hair,

but if you'd ever let me in,

I'd never not be there.

Turn on your light and sing your song,

my beacon 'cross the lake.

If everything we do is wrong,

it's still a bet I'll take.

Mars is in clear view tonight.

I trust you saw him too.

The moon picks up my pen to write

a ballad ever true.

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"In the shadows, the name is unknown to me." Sunny Day Real Estate Shadows

"I'm sinking like a stone in the sea. I'm burning like a bridge for your body." Brand New Tautou

"And you know I was lost when I found you." Copeland Like a Lie

Stuck

You're my phantom limb,

a crime of passion.

I'm grey and grim,

erased, and ashen.

I wanted your smile.

I wanted your heart.

Our dreamy denial:

a sick work of art.

I'd still breathe you in

if you'd lay down beside me,

but the air here's too thin,

a low and lifeless plea. 

So, choked in my throat

is where you'll be stuck

like the words that I wrote

when your lightning struck

me down to my core

and burned me from my guts.

The spark shines no more,

just ashes of cigarette butts.

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"Yeah, we're only ashes." Something Corporate Only Ashes

"The impact, the aftershave, the European cigarettes, the taxi, the alcohol that lingers on your breath, the lipstick, the street lamp, the woolen overcoat, the front desk, you tell yourself: it isn't over yet..." Pedro the Lion Second Best

A Month

I haven't see the moon

in about a month.

I'm sure she's still up there;

I just haven't looked up.

I haven't seen a sunset

or smelled a blooming flower.

I've only sat and stared at dust

and counted lonely hours.

The pitying pendulum does swings

back and forth and back.

I let the air escape my lungs

'til everything turns black.

When I've seen my final dusk,

I'll dance among the stars,

but all I ever really want 

is to rest inside your arms.

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"The moon was gone; from side the world was dark as nightmares..." Radical Face Bad Blood

Rewind

Never had I crossed a line

nor claimed to have a sturdy spine.

I misread every single sign

until our limbs had intertwined.

I closed my eyes and I was fine

and only knew your lips on mine.

The pills, the beer, the cheap red wine:

fatal mistakes made by design.

A song on repeat in my mind

you sang to me in almost-rhyme. 

Dancing atoms, now combined,

space and time left undefined,

I'm staying here - leave me behind -

I am a dream you can't rewind.

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"I'm drunk, I'm drunk and you're probably on pills. If we've both got the same diseases, it's irrelevant, girl." Frightened Rabbit Keep Yourself Warm

" I'm another day late and one year older. It's failure by design." Brand New Failure by Design

Night

The moon lost her pull

and the stars lost their shine.

Once, I was full

and the planets were in line,

but I'm floating off course,

now falling toward nothing.

I'm bloody and hoarse

from the silence, so crushing.

I asked for an answer,

begged for direction.

I once was your anchor,

your heartbeat, connection.

I searched for your light

through vacant vastness.

But your eternal night

has led me to madness.

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"Am I here? Of course I am, yes. All I need is your hand to drag me out again. It wasn't me. I didn't dig this ditch. I was walking for weeks before I fell in." Frightened Rabbit The Loneliness and the Scream

"My wits begin to turn." King Lear Act III, Scene II.

Breaking

I lost my words

when I lost your tune.

Apologies unheard,

deemed inopportune. 

I turned down the volume.

I shut off the lights.

I fought through the sad gloom.

I searched every night:

a maze of false and true,

a path dark and violent.

But I never found you.

Your voice had gone silent.

Cold, naked, lost, alone,

I'm standing here shaking.

You're a statue of stone...

who I can feel breaking.

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"If I bend, then I might not break. I should think about giving in. If I bend, then I might be okay. I should think about how it ends." Frightened Rabbit Break

Fault Lines

The blues in my eyes

turn to black.

My chapped lipped lies

hit me right back.

I can't shake the picture

you painted by mistake

and no amount of liquor

can numb away the ache.

A fault line in my chest

that was always almost breaking

and a love never confessed

so my voice was always faking

made a mess of my insides

and a hell of my weak heart.

So I'll slip under your tides

while we breathe so far apart.

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"I know you're still dealing with her leaving. It's a shame, but you've only yourself to blame." Owen Nobody's Nothing

Sense

I dreamed I watched you

as you slept,

a mirage so true,

impression kept.

I saw your chest 

swell and condense.

We know we're blessed;

we have that sense.

I listened as your heart

beat out my name

like I am a part

of fiber and vein;

I brushed my fingers

along your body:

goosebumps linger,

but dreams are foggy.

And, oh, how my chapped lips

so begged to be wet,

to meet hands, thighs, and hips,

to know the taste of sweat.

If you'd only turn to me,

open those ocean eyes,

we'd melt as primal synergy

as one among the skies.

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"I feel an urgent need to apologize. I did a terrible thing in a terrible dream And now I can't look you in the eyes." Kevin Devine People are So Fickle

"'Cause your cracked, dry lips leave traces and more. I wake up wanting you. I wake up wanting you." The Unwinding Hours Traces

Way to Grace

Silence and a starry sky,

cool air on your face,

don't you wish that you could fly

and find you way to grace?

Oxygen and arteries 

and words caught in your throat

and all the times that you found me

inside the notes you wrote

amount to lore and fairly tails

and truths too dark to light.

I am each breath that you inhale. 

I am your moon at night.

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"I don't want to breathe without you. You're my oxygen." New Found Glory Oxygen

For We Arose

I wish my voice

could hug your shoulders

and turn the noise

to dust.

Let my heart

clear out your path.

This is art

or this is lust.

I warn you this:

I'm always in...

wet lips to kiss,

combust.

So if it's love

your veins require,

look up above

and trust

that in the shadows,

I won't fade.

For we arose

of stardust.

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"My cotton mouth was wet with you..." Kevin Devine A Billion Bees

Our Hue

The earth is such a tiny home

that nurtures hearts immense.

Deep into the dark, I roam,

dancing the great expanse.

The universe is fully known,

every careless cosmic romance,

so don't ever think that you're alone.

Nothing here is left to chance.

So, look up in your starry sky.
I twinkle just for you.

And how I wish that you could fly;

Oh, how you'd love the view.

Above the clouds, you could be mine

and I would be yours too

and those below would see our shine;

they'd shimmer in our hue.

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"You couldn't be more beautiful to me. There's no where in this world I'd rather be. And now I know that everything's all right if we stay between the glow and the light." Jump, Little Children Dim and the Dark

Finite

The spark of glitter
in my eyes,
the shakes, the jitters,
I can't deny.
I hear a song,
can't make the words.
I sing along.
I think you heard.
Air in my hair,
you in my blood,
somehow I'm there
in the moon and the sun.

But it's finite and fake,
fever dream, not fact;
it's the best we can make;
it's a suicide pact.
I can't breathe.
My voice is choked.
I'm underneath
a heavy cloak.
Alone in blackness,
covered in scars.
I think the blackness
overtook the stars.

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"And you are graceful and absolutely fake." Kevin Devine Working in Quiet

"I am covered in skin; no one gets to come in." Counting Crows Color Blind

Vastness

The vastness takes

my breath away.

The void rocks

to and fro.

Through the dark,

despite the light,

you somehow found

my glow.

When you breath,

I'll be your air.

Hold me in.

Don't let go.

This atmosphere

is all we have.

Heart beat.

Blood flow.

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"For small creatures such as we, the vastness is bearable only through love." Carl Sagan Contact