I See You

I lose my words
and I lose my sight.
The lines are blurred,
can't even write.

But I see you
though dust and haze.
My heart is true.
Just stay. Just stay.


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"I'm okay, okay...so, just stay, just stay." Kevin Devine Just Stay

A Vague Memory

Put your hand

over your heart

and feel the rhythm

underneath.

With every breath,

with every beat,

please know that I'm

inside your veins. 

Neurons spark,

connections made,

I am a thought,

a vague memory.

I'm a hand 

you can't reach,

but I'm never

far away.

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"You are the smell before rain. You are the blood in my veins." Brand New The Boy Who Blocked His Own Shot

"So give me soft, soft static. We won't need no electricity. If we both get old fashioned, we won't have to rely on our memories." Frightened Rabbit Old, Old Fashion

Enough

Out from the darkness,

you appeared.

Hope for the hopeless,

your warm hands neared,

shooed away the loneliness

for so long I had feared.

Your touch led me to acquiesce;

my hazy head now cleared.

"Beautiful," you called me.

Your eyes said you were true.

You sang to me about the bees,

the sun, the sky so blue:

such perfect, precious melodies

could only come from you.

In tune, I found my clarity

and heard your heart beat too.

Now, I want to be your air;

I want to fill you up.

This stillness is so sweet and rare;

I pray it never stops

So sing to me so fine and fair;

my verses are still rough.

I just want us to stay right where

I'll always be enough.

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"So every breath stung more and more, a wave of whips across my spine, a billion bees trapped in my chest, nails on chalkboard every time 'til I watched your fingers sneak towards mine. I heard your breath go thin and short. I tucked your hair behind your ears and watched your eyes dart back and forth." Kevin Devine A Billion Bees

"You couldn't be more beautiful to me. There's no where in this world I'd rather be and now I know that everything's all right If we stay between the glow and the light." Jump, Little Children Dim and the Dark

Nothing to Deny

Your words 

are my knife;

they splice open

my guts

and leave me

blank and bleeding.

Pleading 

my case,

debased and 

battered down,

I drown 

in reason

you twist into

linguistic treason.

Your punishment

for crimes

I've neither

committed nor

confessed

is this mess.

I'm tried 

and convicted

as if you are

a victim.

But fuck an alibi;

I've nothing to deny.

But you can blame me when

you've no one left to blame.

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"I wanna be the knife that cuts into my hand and I wanna be scattered from here in this catapult." Counting Crows Catapult

"But I am fine with where I am now. This home is home and all that I need, but for you, this place is shame. But you can blame me when there's no one left to blame." Radical Face Almost Gold

Breathe Anew

Place the needle

in the groove

and then just breathe,

but do not move.

There's no one here

to disapprove.

In my arms,

nothing to prove,

Alive again,

blood rushes through

your dormant viens.

Lungs breathe anew.

I rest myself

on top of you.

What we have done,

we can't undo.

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"The needle on my record player has been wearing thin." New Found Glory Hit or Miss

"We breathe so desperately as if it's the only thing we need. And we don't care if it's not breathing honestly. We're burning our lungs with it and we don't care. We don't care at all." From Indian Lakes Breathe, Desperately

Holding On

Screaming and shouting,
dealing,
doubting,
I’m drowning in words
with no meaning.
Dreaming in tongues
and lost in the stars,
roaming
where time bends
like truth,
I’m holding on tight
to you.
The present is
within our view,
but out of reach
and I can't breach
the gap between
old love and new.

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"Hold on to the light that guides you. Hold on to the air that cools you. Hold on, hold on to me." The Starting Line Hold On

Home

This insanity:

what's becoming of me,

a whisper,

a thought,

warm lips,

ought not.

I push,

you pull,

in the end

we're both full.

I won't leave,

won't even breathe,

with my hand in yours,

looking into the stars.

Ours is a dream

that we've always known.

And I know that my home

is in this point in time.

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"Why do this love and madness look so much alike?” Rocky Votolato Sawdust and Shavings

"One night of magic rush. The start, a simple touch. One night to push and scream. And then relief" Jose Gonzelaz (The Knife) Heartbeats

"Remember to breathe and everything will be okay." Dashboard Confessional Remember to Breathe

"I still miss you. There's no goin' home. There's no goin' home with a name like mine. I still dream of you, but everyone knows, yeah everyone knows...if you can, let it go." Radical Face Ghost Towns

Semantic Compromise

My words are in your eyes,
but now my tongue is tied.
The clock on my wall lied;
it told me poetry is time.
Regardless, now you're mine
and there is no other side,
no other love tested and tried,
confessed or cried
that so terrified
or left you paralyzed.
Breathlessly confide
the truths you know I’ll hide:
a mistake, a disguise,
a blameless broken bride,
a history revised,
a semantic compromise
and soon, the sun will rise

and I’ll still be in your skies.

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“I long to take you to a secret place where we could lay aside our past. We'd throw the world away with all it's pain to shine like stars through storm and clouds and rain. Faces in disguise, not a trace of desire…” Sunny Day Real Estate Faces in Disguise

Unsaid

Sometimes I wake
in the middle on the night
and I almost say to you
what we promised
would remain
unsaid.
Like a black incantation,
the syllables would force
the ground to shake beneath us.
Curse us,
back to us in threes,
bring us to our knees.

Still, the words fight
for freedom,
but I keep them locked
behind enamel bars.
My heart pounds
in her cage,
in a rage,
crying to be heard.
But I hold my breath
and I bite my tongue
and I toss and I turn
and I want and I wait.

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"They're spitting at the earth, plunder, beg, and curse..." Colour Revolt Moses of the South

"Drink up baby, look at the stars. I'll kiss you again between the bars." Elliott Smith Between the Bars
 
"My ribs have parted ways. They said, 'We're not going to protect this heart you have.'" Saves the Day You Vandal